We have arrived at 7 o'clock in the evening; I and my boyfriend Harry were so tired. Before he left, we had our conversation.
“Harry, what do you think, did we make the children in the church happy?” I asked.
“Of course we did ash. Actually, I enjoyed it too. After how many years of being there for them, we loved them with all our hearts. It feels so good to have them as our own, if we can only afford it.” He answered.
“Yeah, right.” I said with a smile on my face, “Anyway, I loved the way you tell stories to them. Oh, God, I am so happy.”
He touched my cheeks and looked at me so tenderly. Then, he smiled.
“But I will be most happy if I would have you as my wife, Ash.” He said.
I blushed, and hugged him.
“Honey, what time is it?” I asked him.
“I know, I know, time to go home.”
“Got it. Haha.”
“I love you?..” He was waiting for my answer.
“I love you too, Harry. Let’s take a rest, I’m so tired.” I smiled.
“Good night, you take care, okay?”
“I will, honey, you too.”
And we departed.
“KRINGGGGG… KRINGGGGG..”
I woke up but still unconscious. I got the alarm clock and looked at the time.
“Six o’clock? It’s so early. Oh my God, Harry. He re-set it..”
I stood up and took a bath, it’s Monday. So I need to be early for school. A teacher should be always earlier that her students, I always reminded myself of that.
It was 12 o’clock in the afternoon. I decided to have a walk in the school’s baseball field. I always want to have a quiet time for God, so I sat down and looked at the wide and empty field. Then, I prayed.
After opening my eyes, I saw a man standing not so far from my location. I was curious because it seemed that he is in deep thinking. I slowly came near him. He’s not aware that I was there. I couldn’t see his face because he’s not facing at me. After minutes of staring at him, I asked with the tone of curiosity.
“Are you okay?”
And he turned back.
Everything went dark and I stunned on my feet when our eyes met. My heart was beating so fast. And I can also see in his face the amazement and shock. I didn’t know what to utter first. I was completely smashed by my emotions. Then, a I heard a voice that woke me up from being stunned.
“How have you been?” The man asked.
“I-I am f-fine, how about you?”
He looked at me differently and I noticed some tiny drops of tears falling from his eyes. My emotions started to burst inside me. And I can feel my eyes going wet. No way, I should not weep, so I held it and asked.
“What are you doing here?”
He wiped his tears simply and answered me with a hug.
“I missed you so much, part.”
I couldn’t hold my tears anymore so I started to sob. And I hugged him too.
“I miss you too, part..”
But suddenly, a force coming from my body made me to push him away.
“What are you doing?”
“I searched for you anywhere, part. And I knew from papa that you work here. Look at you, you are successful now.” He answered.
“Why? You didn’t continue your schooling?”
“I did, after four years if being a bum; I decided to come back to MSU to start again. You know what? I thought I would see you there.”
“Okay, but anyway, why are you here?”
“I want to talk to you and tell you that I am so sorry for what I’ve done to you. I’ve regretted it. I missed the way you hug, the way you kiss and even the way you love me. I miss the whole you.”
“But it can’t be, how about Shem?”
“We didn’t last. I realized that I love you really and I was wrong to find someone new and I thought someone better. But she’s not.”
“Why are you doing this?”
‘I want you back.” He continued.
I was feeling mixed emotions that moment. I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t know what to say and how to say that I hated him for breaking my heart long ago. I waned to slap him but I also wanted to hug him. Bu then, my phone vibrated, it was a call. So I picked it up.
“Honey, are you busy tonight?” Harry said.
“Ahm, no I’m not. Why?” I answered while looking at Mark. I saw him looking downward. It was so obvious that he was hurt.
“Mom will cook a dinner for us; she wants to have you at the house after your class. Please do come? Please?” He said with a soft and convincing voice. It made me smile.
“Yes Harry, I will. Uhm, I need to put the phone down, I have something to finish up here, okay?”
“I love you, honey..”
I answered with, “I love you too..” and put the phone down.
Mark became so quiet and he couldn’t even look at me. His eyes were teary and he’s getting red.
“I am so sorry, I need to go.” I said. And I turned back. But..
“Do you still love me too? Tell me honestly..”
“You sounded like me..”
“Answer me, do you still love me?”
“Honestly? Yes.. it never faded.” I sighed. “I need to go..”
“I want you back..” He said.
Upon hearing that, my tears fell down. And I faced him and said..
“You had the chance to have me back, four years ago. I begged for you. I suffered and sacrificed for you. But still, you broke my heart.”
“Please give me another chance to make it up to you?’
“Did you give me a last chance to correct the mistakes I made? Did you consider waiting for three months for me to move-on first before finding a new? Do you know how much pain you brought me?”
“I am sorry..”
“I forgave you already, but I have forgotten you too. It’s too late; Harry is waiting for me already. Good-bye.” And I turned back again.
“But I love you..” He said with a soft voice.
I heard it but I continued to walk straight. When I looked back, he’s walking away. Ans he looked back too. He was crying.
I smiled at waved my hand biding goodbye.
But I whispered, “I love you too..”
Then..
“KRRRRINGGGGGG…”
I opened my eyes. And I saw Harry’s face at the door. Smiling and holding my alarm clock.
“Good morning honey, get up..”
I stood up and looked at my pillows. They are wet, my eyes too.
“Why are you crying baby? Did you have a bad dream last night?” Harry asked.
I said, “Bad dream? Maybe..”
“Why?”
‘Because it was just a dream’, I told myself.
“Nothing.”
