Letter For My Love

My Everdearest Mark,

I was very incomplete until I knew you, i became very different since i've met you, and i am totally happy since i had you.

Having you in my life wasn't so easy for me for i knew that somebody was owning your heart and mine too. But, I thank God because He made a way to let us fall for each other and we did. Part? You were one of my closest friend, the sweetest actually. You've showed me things that really touched my heart and became the reason why i found myself in a corner longing to have you as mine. MINE.

You don't know part how happy i was the day we became lovers, i was very excited to go to school because of you. PLUS! Gosh, i couldn't stop falling for you more and more!! You are so easy to love. You hooked me. CONGRATS! Haha..

Remember the first monthsary of ours? First, we went to Maharlika with your relatives and after went to the city to attend our Chanting practice but we only brought P100 and we ended up in a wrong place? That was so fun. We had our bondings together. Talked about ourselves and became closer than ever.

I am not really sure if it was our 2nd or 3rd monthsary when we went above the H-building and spent the day there? We brought foods just like we always do. PICNIC here, PICNIC there.

One of the sweetest thing i can eally remember is when you gave me a ring on our 4th monthsary. The proposal was so sweet and you know already that until now, the ring is still on my finger, never taken since the day you put it on.

We had lots of memories to cherish, right? The time we argued about 'disco' then after, we danced, just two of us then you didn't notice that you already cried? Hmm. Remember when we planned to get married at my age of 18? You were so dedicated, are you still now, part? RIGHT!!! Haha.. the shopaholic partner, that's us! We really thought we are the owner of the KCC Supermarket, we stroll and stroll and acted like we awere rich and will buy all of the products. But, hmpp!! We once bought a box of delatas. We planned to consume it within a month and we survived, even though there are times that we suffered. But still, there we were, laughing in a corner. Seemed to be no problem at all.

Hahaiii..

You know part? You are the greatest person i've ever known, aside from my family. You did LOTS and LOTS and LOTS of things just for me. You humbled yourself and offered me everything i want and need. I can't really forget how you satisfied yourself by eating only burger and coke while me? HAHA. I had all the foods, sundaes, spag, fries and etc.. that was so so sweet of you part..

And until now, I can't keep on falling inlove for you each day and i will never ever get you out of my life.. You are the one i am asking God for me..

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH part and THANK U, THANK U, THANK U for EVERYTHING, part...

HAPPY 14th MONTHSARY!!!!

Love,

asrah

Life in MSU..

The year was 2008 when I first stepped on MSU campus. My mama were here because she enrolled me and my brother Von at the school. First impression? Whoooaahhh!! I kept on saying,"This is some campus, so huge!" and also, like everyone's, this school is dusty and hot. But, since it's one of my dreams, to go to GENSAN, it didn't annoy me. I enjoyed it.

June 2 was the very first class here, my first subject was P.E. So i went to the gym but i did'nt know where i would go. I saw no rooms there, never thought that the gym itself is the class room. So what did i do? Simple, i dialled my bro's number then called him, "Kuya, dali ba, damu tana alagyan dire ah, di ko bal-an kung diin magkadto, tudlue ko ayh.." with matching crying-like voice. Minutes after, my bro was already there and pointed the way to my next room. I was really amazed with the roads i was taking, the rooms are separated and so far from each other. I got gallons and gallons of sweat, though i am not really sweaty.

Hmm.. I also met friends here, one was Charity and she was so sweet, we were always alone those times until the time that the gang became large and she was left out, i did'nt notice it. It was so terrible. The, there exist the The Egglets, me, petit and gaylord. The friendship was really fun, they helped me forget my past relationship with my ex, he was a mess, he's hurt me so muchbut thanks to them, i had forgotten him.

And of course, i will never end this blog up without telling the climax of the stor. Here in MSU, i found the guy i am loving now. He belongs to the friendship that grew in time.He was the only one who gave me a gift, specifically, a card on my 16th birthday. I was touched. He became my counselor and my sweetest friend. And until such time that LOVE between us existed. I can never forget the time when we had our confession to each other. I told him that i had a crush on him and do u know what did he tell me? He told me,"I think I love you.." but after, he clarified it, he said, "No, I really love you..".That happened at the Camanay. Hahaii.. But it wan not theday when we decided to create a realationship different and more special that what we had before that.And that happened on the day after that day. Hehe. Do you know how it happened? Actually, the day before, our talk ended without clarifying what was going between us, and he said, "Let's talk tomorrow.."..

My heart was shouting with joy. That time? I already loved him. But we both have our lovers still. Butthat night, he ended his relationship with his gf and mine? It was already done. So, after our second prelim exam on our math 17, we talked. He came with me up to the front of our house, then he asked me, "Is it okay with you to be my girlfriend.." That was really ENGLISH. I didn't know how to answer him. So what i did was to bring him infront of my ate and her bf and introduced him to them. After, he asked me, "what's ur decision?".. And i answered, "wasn't it a YES??".. And he smiled so beatifully.. I could see the joy inside him. He didn't know what to do, to hug me or not. But what was unforgettable there was the smile I saw on his face.

I told him not to inform anybody, but the day after, i was shocked when everybody asked me, "kamo na ni PON?"..

BLUSSSHHHHH!!!

Actually, if i need to tell you all the things happened to me here,i think i would spend much time to encode.

That's until now.. hope u enjoyed it!!

My First Poem For God

    Come Into My Life Lord

You were there Lord from the start
Opening Your arms for me and never stopped
Showing me great things yet I was blind
You were there Lord, in my life.

Forgive me Father for not
Opening the door of my heart
I was deaf when You knocked
But thank You Lord, You came back.

Welcome Oh Lord, I accept You
Enter in my heart that is only for You
Stay here forever, stay and don't go
For I love You Jesus, I love You so!

My God, My Father, my Savior and Friend
I owe You great things I can't even name
You're so Majesty is beyond compare
In my heart Lord, You are now here..

For My Dearest Mother

September 12, 2009
Saturday

Dear Mama,

Have a good day!!

How are you this time ma? I really really hope that you are just fine. How's your cough ma? Are feeling well already? Don't you know that I miss you so much, ma?

Ma, thank you so much for being the best mom in the world, huh? I am very lucky because you are my mom, I'm so blessed that you bore me as your daughter, hehe.

Ma, I am sorry for all the lapses that i have done to you. I have hurt your heart ma, I am so so sorry. I never realized how much it would tear your heart, but ma, I regret that I have done it to you. I love you ma, very much. This time, I promise to be eager in my studies because I want you to be very proud of me.

Thank you ma, for all the sacrifices you have made. Even though papa is not here, you still found a way to save us, to bring us to school and up to college. I really treat that as a great debt of gratitude ma, I owe you a lot of things in my life.

Ma, please get well soon? I'll be praying for you. I want to see you again and I want that in that time, you are already well. I don't want you sick, I'm hurt also.

I love you so much ma!!

Very very much!!

Until here ma.

Your daughter,
Taktak

Him or him?

My life turned around him.

He was my all.

I've given all i can give.

But, I'm left no choice but to let him go.

From the moment I have accepted Christ as my Personal Savior, I had the desire to grow up, to be mature in my spiritual life. I struggled so hard, I tried my best. And now, I have what I have desired. I am now a good messenger of Christ.

I loved him so much. I did all the things he told me to do. Sometimes, unreasonable but still I tried. I sacrificed a lot of things for him. Now that we're apart, we have been like dogs and cats, we always have conflict. I always cry. He became CRUEL.

HE loved me. HE has given me all I wanted. Protected me and my family. Healed my heart every time I'm hurt and most of all, HE gave me the chance to be what I really want, an Evangelist.

He never supported my desire to grow up in Christ. He forbade me to go to our ministry and to come with my friends to a bible study. He became my reason to sin. He's a hindrance, not an inspiration to my want to become what HE wants me to be.

Which shall I prefer? Whom shall I give my heart and LIFE?

To him that gives me a temporary happiness and permanent and endless tears or to HIM Who is the real source of my true joy and my heart healer, the One who really cares..

WHO??

Obviously, HIM, GOD..

I know it's too hard but I have to, and I know that HE knows the best for me..